Nothing it is same

 The time goes by. 

Cities change.

People change. And they get old.

Memories remain, photos lose color.

And so I could go on listing some things, but for what? Wasting time listing many things and not saying anything specific? List to fill in the empty spaces and say that I have said something when everything is empty and nothing?

We all know that as time progresses, everything changes. And nothing will be the same again. It applies even in relationships, friendships, family and much more. It's the price of growing, a hight level of price to pay for that growing. The process it is very painfully, especially for the heart, and for the mind too. Not it is any pain, it is the heart pain. You love so much for someone but in the end of the day, that person decided leave you behind without any explication or given you some answer. Just go on without see behiand of him.

It is like you never exist in his life.

For the other side, the friends that you thik it was your "real friends" in the end of the day, never was your real friends. They just manipulated you with your emotions and with your mind, abused you in your true feeling. Your honest feelings. Why am I talking about this? Because it is simple: everybody change. For the good or for the bad, but in the end of everything, it is a change. And every change has a price to pay.

So each day for the week, everything it is new. The conclusion it is: nothing it is same. And it is true. Nothing of your old past, comeback, accept it.

Your old friends, now are strangers.

Your old boyfriend/girlfriend, now is your ex. Some of your ex still in contact with you and other only is a stranger even if it is your contact in social network.

If you see behind you. If you see the past and compare with the present, some people still with you and other just left you. Again, it is the painfully part of the growing, of continue with the life, with the decision that you take at the moment. Because you think in yourself, in your emotional and mental health. And that is the correct thought, but sometimes work it and others not.

I can say more stuff like that about, nothing it is same, but you righ now, catch the principal idea; and that is I want it.

Never was the same. Never will be the same.

The same birthday

It's been a while where your birthday it's the same. You always was looking on the social networks how people congrats to the birthday person, others leave a simple message and others put a photo with a message. But you always are the same birthday girl, right? Nothing different from the others years in the same day.

Well, all about social networks it is since around 2010 until today. Before from 2010, although there were social networks, they were not very popular. However, the birthday, in general terms, always was the same: congratulations, kisses, good wishes, etc.

But for you, your birthday it is not different this year from the others. It is always the same: bored. Well, you always say that you birthday it is a day like the others, with the same routine, the same schedule, the same everything. It is like  your birthday 

You always think that the birthday day could be different each year, but no. In your case, never was, and never will be different. May be it is your destiny, or... well, you don't know exactly what it is. Sometimes you don't want think much about that; in your opinion, that is very exhausting and lose a lot of energy that you can use in other activities. 

You sigh with homesickness. You know well how it is your family, and so you accept what destiny has for you, after all, you never had decided chose that family in which you are a member. They don´t understand you, that's a reality you can't deny. They make you feel worthless and like you are a big zero. You don´t want think more about that, or about your family. Your birthday never was something special or a big deal. Nothing interesting, actually. 

For you, the meaning of "birthday" it is: same day like other, nothing special and working with your own projects or ideas that you have in your mind and you need that to be outside no matter what. You receive the congratulation from your "family", friends but it is more for tradition than other stuffs. 

In the end of the day, you had a good day after all. And that it is what matter.